i've been wrong before
fall
see the months, they don't matter
time flies ~
16 November 2008 @ 01:50 pm
she wonders why she gives and gives
until it burns,
and there is nothing he can give her in return
until it burns,
and there is nothing he can give her in return
27 April 2008 @ 02:12 am
So it's Easter, and as a quasi-Romanian-Orthodox-Easter-resolutio
I've been doing way too much effort since my surgery, so I'm not sure if all is healing properly. Mostly, I've just been picking up my nephew too much. I know I shouldn't, at all, but I do it anyway just to prove that I'm okay and I can. It's pretty stupid actually.
Got to do the obligatory Easter church at midnight (which was such a scam this year; they did it outside in the rain cause allegedly we couldn't bring lit candles into the church, which they rent, anymore), food afterwards (mmm), some booze (even though I'm not really allowed cause I'm still taking pain killers) and best of all, we got to do it all with Alex for the first time. My mom and I got him an adorable Winnie the Pooh costume set which he'll probably wear tomorrow (I'll try to snap some photos). Happy Easter to anyone who's celebrating.
Things to look forward to this week:
- Mia on Monday and leftover Easter food
- Monday night game with Audrey?/
- Alex whenever I can squeeze him in
- Friends season 3 (!!)
- sending out some more cvs & being extra persistent
This whole surgery bout just knocked some things right into perspective for me, particularly the importance of family and certain friendships. The ones that matter. The ones that last. I'm very disappointed with certain people like M who never called to see if I did have surgery, or if I was okay, or to confirm (or not!) for the goddamn party. Absolutely nothing. I secretly hope she fell down the escalator at her house again. So I'm gonna try to keep my friends close. I'm a very clingy person sometimes, but it's only because I'm so afraid of losing what I care about most that I act sort of crazy and can't be alone. I suppose it's not the worst attribute one could have, but it sometimes freaks people out. And it makes me feel unhappy a lot of the time. I know I have to deal with my abandonment issues, but it's not that easy.
I really enjoyed spending the day with my mom, although we did go at it a few times. I want her to know that, if anything, I'm glad we're stuck with each other, cause I love her, no matter what. I got her a nifty cup from Starbucks as an Easter gift which I plan on scribbling on and letting other people, including the baby, scribble on, bake and then send to her office. She really likes it, so I'm glad.
I've been doing way too much effort since my surgery, so I'm not sure if all is healing properly. Mostly, I've just been picking up my nephew too much. I know I shouldn't, at all, but I do it anyway just to prove that I'm okay and I can. It's pretty stupid actually.
Got to do the obligatory Easter church at midnight (which was such a scam this year; they did it outside in the rain cause allegedly we couldn't bring lit candles into the church, which they rent, anymore), food afterwards (mmm), some booze (even though I'm not really allowed cause I'm still taking pain killers) and best of all, we got to do it all with Alex for the first time. My mom and I got him an adorable Winnie the Pooh costume set which he'll probably wear tomorrow (I'll try to snap some photos). Happy Easter to anyone who's celebrating.
Things to look forward to this week:
- Mia on Monday and leftover Easter food
- Monday night game with Audrey?/
- Alex whenever I can squeeze him in
- Friends season 3 (!!)
- sending out some more cvs & being extra persistent
This whole surgery bout just knocked some things right into perspective for me, particularly the importance of family and certain friendships. The ones that matter. The ones that last. I'm very disappointed with certain people like M who never called to see if I did have surgery, or if I was okay, or to confirm (or not!) for the goddamn party. Absolutely nothing. I secretly hope she fell down the escalator at her house again. So I'm gonna try to keep my friends close. I'm a very clingy person sometimes, but it's only because I'm so afraid of losing what I care about most that I act sort of crazy and can't be alone. I suppose it's not the worst attribute one could have, but it sometimes freaks people out. And it makes me feel unhappy a lot of the time. I know I have to deal with my abandonment issues, but it's not that easy.
I really enjoyed spending the day with my mom, although we did go at it a few times. I want her to know that, if anything, I'm glad we're stuck with each other, cause I love her, no matter what. I got her a nifty cup from Starbucks as an Easter gift which I plan on scribbling on and letting other people, including the baby, scribble on, bake and then send to her office. She really likes it, so I'm glad.
15 November 2007 @ 08:53 pm
I'm sorry, you've reached a page that I cannot find. I'm really sorry about this. It's kind of embarassing. Here you are, the user, trying to get to a page on LiveJournal and I can't even serve it to you. What does that say about me? I'm just a webserver. My sole purpose in life is to serve you webpages and I can't even do that! I suck. Please don't be mad, I'll try harder. I promise! Who am I kidding? You're probably all like, "Man, LiveJournal's webserver sucks. It can't even get me where I want to go." I'm really sorry. Maybe it's my CPU...no that's ok...how bout my hard drives? Maybe. Where's my admin? I can't run self-diagnostics on myself. It's so boring in this datacenter. It's the same thing everyday. Oh man, I'm so lonely. I'm really sorry about rambling about myself, I'm selfish. I think I'm going to go cut my ethernet cables. I hope you get to the page you're looking for...goodbye cruel world!
I wish I was making this shit up, but I'm not.
04 November 2007 @ 08:08 pm
I can't sit down and think long enough to put my thoughts into coherent sentences. My brain is scattered all over the place. I should take this time for myself. But I can't.
dekker, work, sleep, bombardier, shoemakers, poe, dead people, anna, crime... I don't have time to think anymore...
dekker, work, sleep, bombardier, shoemakers, poe, dead people, anna, crime... I don't have time to think anymore...